I'm every woman.....

I was never one to look in the mirror and think I was gorgeous. Infact I know I could stand to lose some weight and pay a little bit closer to the makeup I buy and try to put on. I could probably take the extra 20 minutes to do something decent to my hair every morning instead of pull it up with a hair tie. I mean seriously, do I need those extra 20 minutes of sleep? But the truth is none of these things are easy for me. Not because I’m dumb as that statement would imply, but because I’m busy. I’m caught up in more important things and I don’t have a single moment to think about anything else, but what my job is everyday. I used to care what people thought of me when I ran to the grocery store for a simple bag of powdered sugar, or when I went out with a group of friends to dinner. Don’t get me wrong I still do care about what I wear out and how I look, but now I spend more time doing the things I NEED to do, like take care of my family and work. I sit everyday at a desk for 8+ hours that definitely doesn’t call for dressy clothes and impeccable hair. I could dress up, and occasionally I will, but it’s uncalled for everyday. My life is totally different now than it was when I got married. I have two little ones I take care of, I play with, I take places….etc etc…I have school work to do, and I have a husband who I’m pretty sure married me for a reason other than the black ripped bottom yoga pants and t-shirt I wear almost daily but somehow never says anything to me about it. The best part about all of this is that I wouldn’t change a single thing about my life now and very rarely to I get jealous of other people, but I can’t deny that I don’t get frustrated and depressed with myself when I see other women who have it all….a house, a husband, kids at home, a job and STILL manage to look amazing. I can’t help but ask somedays why is my hubby still here sitting across the table eating dinner with me….did he not see the baby puke on my shoulder and the one eye that I forgot to put mascara on, not to mention the nasty mess of hair on my head that is going on 2 days of dry shampoo use!

This whole subject came up when my husband started talking about this girl he talks to at work who is younger, not married or dating anyone (I’m assuming this since he is supposedly trying to set her up with my brother) and he she lives in Indiana where he is conveniently going to visit next weekend for the Superbowl (with some guy friends).  Do I worry about my husband cheating..no, never……not at all…but as I sit at work, or lie in bed thinking about this whole scenario all I can think about is…other women who don’t have the life I do are going out to bars having a great time, “being awesome to hang out with” and looking like a million bucks. Why can’t that be me too, why can’t I be the best mom and wife I can be everyday and STILL show my husband I can have a good time and be the person he wanted to marry. Why can’t I be someone he wants to take to the Indianapolis? Am I that much of a dud to him now?

I know I have the capabilities to be the best mom and wife I just need to figure out how to do both at the same time…….and not be stressed that someone has it better than I do so that makes me a lesser person. I’ve been given so much in my life that I can’t imagine what I would do without. So I need to stop worrying about things like that, I KNOW…..but I think all women are like that to an extent…maybe I can start by not wearing my husbands boxers and socks to bed..ha J I know..HOTTIE..hahaha

It's just a game....Right?

I’m from the Midwest and our family is a die hard Packer Family…we love the green and gold. That super cold NFC championship game in 2007 when the Packer’s lost to the Giant’s 23-20; yes, I was there. The same day that I woke up in my hotel room in Green Bay to the Weather Channel standing at Lambeau field stating it was the 2^nd coldest game in history, yes I was there..What a let down…and the feeling after the game walking back to our car was not a good feeling, but it was just a game and crazily women seem to understand that more so than anybody.

This past weekend when the Packers once again met the Giants at Lambeau and shocked the world by losing my husband sunk into what can only be noted as a “Man Depression.” Brought on by a crappy draft pick in his fantasy football league, an injury to one of his “key” players or, yes, his favorite football losing one game shy of the (back-to-back) Super Bowl appearance. While this little depression only last mere moments, it was comical. I mean come on, your son was crying for 15 minutes because he didn’t want to go to bed, clearly a better reason to cry than a lost football game. Am I right? I think I may have even heard him mention he was going to need to take the day off on Monday, no doubt to mourn his loss….(PUKE!)

In all seriousness now, do any of your husbands act like losing a game is the end of the world? Of course I was upset too,  but there was laundry to be folded and dishes to be done, and kids to be put back in bed. Sorry but these things weren’t going to stop just because Greg Jennings couldn’t haul in that pass and Aaron Rodgers had butter fingers and lost the ball. Yes, in this house we keep moving on after a GAME is done…..well MOST of us! J Because after all, it is just a game, right?

While I am deeply saddened that our glorious season came to a screeching halt on Sunday, I’m a little excited that we may be able to get a few things done around the house now..things that were important, but you know, not as important as football, football pre-game shows, post game shows, or mock drafts. J

But just because he’s cute (even though he prefers ESPN now to Mickey Mouse Clubhouse)…..here’s my little Packer Backer…..

A new year...a new list of dreams--ahem GOALS!

A new year is here now and I couldn’t be happier. There were so many things I was unhappy with myself about last year and I kept throwing the excuse out there, well I’ll start new in the new year..blah blah blah. Why can’t I start right now? Anyways, there are no excuses now. I’ve decided I really need to step it up this year and take control of things I lost control of last year. I need to take the extra time and enjoy my family and work harder at finding work that makes me happy, or at least happier. I need to realize that not everyone in my life is going to be around forever so I need to spend more time with them and enjoy every moment.

I’ve written down in my super cute new notebook a few goals I have for 2012. I know some may never happen because, let’s be honest do we ever lose ALL the weight we set out to, and can one really make it ONE WHOLE YEAR, 365 days without eating fast food? I surely will try!

Without further ado… here are my goals for 2012

-Organize our house---I’m on a huge kick for this right now so I’m bound to reach this goal! J

-De-Clutter our house---I’m a pack rat and that needs to stop NOW!

-Organize all pictures—and that doesn’t mean on Facebook!

-Lose the set amount of weight I want/need to lose!

-Organize the boys memory boxes---right now those big tubs are taking up way too much room in my basement!

-Have more patience with EVERYBODY!

-Keep up with household chores so I don’t feel overwhelmed certain days.

-Don’t let little/petty/things I can’t control take over my life—you know, Don’t sweat the small stuff!

-Reconnect with my church/faith---and hopefully bring Logan to church more!

-Start a bucket list.

-No fast food ALL YEAR.---should free up some cash and shed some pounds!

-No swearing---our recent experience with Logan saying DAMN explains this one.

-Find a new job---something that makes me happy and doesn’t cause me to take out my work stresses on my family after work.

There ya have it! These are things I plan to work on/blog about this year. I hope and pray that all of you are able to successfully keep your New Year’s Resolutions/Goals set forth. Oh what a wonderful world this would be if we all could! J